There was an ongoing swarm taking place in Southern California over the last 2 days. It was where the Brawley Seismic Zone is. I noticed that I have been experiencing some moodiness, headaches, and some mild pain and discomfort in my left side each time some more activity started to flare up again. It sort of feels as though I have been mortally wounded in a way over the last 11 years. It occurred to me that the moment I set foot on a plate boundary, that sealed the deal for me that I cannot last anywhere far away from a tectonic plate boundary for too long. After my first trip to CA in Fall 2009, I was really struggling in Florida. I waited 3 years before I got out there again. The trips to Tennessee in the meantime may have helped somewhat. I remember feeling quite anxious and just did not feel right inside. I've been here in Tennessee for 3 months now and I have been concerned about my circulation. I could be having problems there. I experienced the deep leg pains shortly after we arrived in March. I also have been very cold in this house. I woke up and my legs were tingling and almost asleep. There was nothing laying on my legs either overnight. Essentially, I don't feel right here. I may have entertained eventually moving back here when I was feeling nostalgic especially during Autumn, but I realized I'm not really where I'm meant to be. Sure I am here to help with my Granddad after my Grandma passing away recently, but I am not meant to stay here for too long. Moving back to one's childhood home and reliving the good old times is not for everyone. I'm not married and raising children of my own. I'm just the daughter that helps around and then I move on to live my own life. I will always remain close and in touch with my family. I just really need my own life. I'm hoping some kind of medical emergency prompts me to go back sooner. I am becoming more convinced that this has that kind of impact on me.
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