June 29, 2021

 Right after I made last night's post, I was suddenly assailed by some terrible pain. Just when I thought I made it through day 1 of my period without any severe pain, I was mistaken. It did not last long, though. It was around 10 p.m. I had to go downstairs and go outside to ground myself and that started providing a little relief. I was nearly in tears forlornly wishing I could feel the ground move where it can push all of that out of me. I felt I at least needed a source that could produce the deep frequency vibrations for pain relief. I'm considering looking for a place that provides vibration therapy. I'm not sure how well an artificial source would help, but it may be worth the try if earthquakes rarely happen in this area. I'm fearful for my health. There has not been a major increase in earthquake activity around the world in a long time and I'm feeling the effects of it for sure. I guess I will have to work a little harder next month if it falls quiet in the days leading up to that time. I plan to do some exercises to improve my core strength and plan on being more disciplined in what I put in my body - really watching my caffeine and alcohol consumption. I'm feeling motivated to push the five days of not having one drink at night. I did a good job not having anything on Sunday evening like I normally would. I had a drink on Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday night last week. I could have done better than that. I should have had no coffee at all unless it was decaf yesterday morning. I should have not had one piece of candy or one bite of red meat and made sure whatever I was eating had no dairy in it. This doesn't mean I can drink 3-4 cups of coffee, have a drink 4 nights out of the week, and eat more soy and consume more sugar and less healthy foods throughout the month until my luteal phase swings back around. It starts now. I really have to start making some drastic changes here to improve my quality of life if the energy here in Tennessee is not doing it for me.

June 28, 2021

 I made it through the day without an endometriosis attack. I may have not been pain free all day, but I did not experience severe pain. I had loaded up on ibuprofen in the days leading up and alkalized my body as best as I could. There was still no significant earthquake activity going on anywhere in the world all day. I feel good about how I was being more proactive about my condition. I meditated listening to binaural beats and ate enough fruit and stayed hydrated. At around 6 p.m., I suddenly found myself getting very tired(even though my energy has been quite low all day; Getting out of bed was hard and I was initially depressed upon waking up). I was afraid as sudden exhaustion is a precursor of an endo flare-up, so I raced down to the kitchen and squeezed two lemons into a tall glass of water. I also took tumeric earlier which is also anti-inflammatory. I felt random pains in my legs and arms a lot today. I also felt some sharp pains in my side over the last hour. I'm not sure what exactly is going on. I have been extremely confused and in a brain fog lately, but that may have to do with my cycle. I believe the lack of seismic waves from all over may have exacerbated it all. This has happened before. The premenstrual symptoms hit me hard this time as there has not been a surge in significant activity around the world in a while, let alone anything close by. Old trapped energy and no full release can be a great source of pain and problems breaking out. I may have not had a bad flare-up of pain like last time, but it was still hard. I was so sore and sensitive all day and exhausted. I was still hurting, but it could have been worse. The massager can help only for a few minutes. The vibrations from that can end up irritating it all after a while. There has to be a certain frequency of vibrations to relieve my pain. That is why I would hope for an earthquake to happen close by. It of course didn't have to be big, but it had to be close enough for me to thoroughly feel those waves comb through me deeply. I felt very sad knowing that I would even more less likely experience that here.

June 27, 2021

 There still is little going on in the world in terms of earthquake activity. There has been only a few mag. 5+ over the last couple of days. I was already feeling the affects today and being on the verge of starting. I'm extra tender and sensitive where it feels like splinters of glass are inside me. I cannot stretch a certain way without hurting. I also would feel it deep in my legs, even though that may not be endo-related. I was feeling some pain deep in my side earlier while I was attending 11 O'Clock mass today. I found myself feeling very irritable this afternoon where my temper flared up which does not happen that often anymore. It feels like there should be a lot of serious activity going on in the world any time now. I have been using a massager and plan on going for a walk this evening. I don't want to use the bike this time since I'm extra sensitive and sore now. I am also going to be meditating this evening and will not touch any of the spirits downstairs tonight. I may also skip having coffee in the morning or just drink one small cup and have decaf as a second cup. I ate some fruit this afternoon and drank lemon water. I have 6 days of ibuprofen in my system to help stave the onslaught of pain especially after a lack of seismic energy anywhere. The closest earthquakes that have happened this week to my area were about 100 miles away and were below magnitude 3. They also are not that frequent here either.

9:17 p.m.(CDT)

I went for a walk this evening. I was feeling some deep throbbing pains in my left side again. I feel extra sensitive, almost paranoid about feeling a sudden severe pain. I have felt random pains throughout my body all day, especially as I'm about to start and possibly experiencing issues with my blood and my nerves. I'm not necessarily saying that my body is now susceptible to disease and infection since I'm far away from any plate boundaries and have not been thoroughly combed by seismic waves in a while. There is definitely a big difference and while my hormones don't feel as unruly and the rage cooled down, I do not feel right inside. I'm planning to go on a trip to Alaska not long from now and I'm going to find out how I will fare there. It is a different tectonic setting than California and it has more earthquakes than California and numerous good-sized ones. As of right now, I know I need to be more proactive with my health and this situation. I certainly don't want to undergo another endo attack like I did last month again. I did not prepare my body well last time. I had some alcohol 5 nights in a row leading up to the period. I was thinking I would get away with it because there had recently been plenty of strong earthquakes in the world. Besides, I noticed there would have to be a lot going on in the days leading up to and during to flush out old trapped energy.

June, 26, 2021

 I felt a sudden burning pain in my side at 5:30. I felt some mild pressure earlier, but there has yet to be a lot going on in the world. I'm also preparing as my time is almost here. I could be starting Monday or even tomorrow. I'm having no alcohol tonight. It would not be worth suffering an endo flare-up later on. It is especially dangerous as there has been so little going on in the world in terms of earthquakes - nothing to really flush out the old stagnant energy and trapped energy from flare-ups of seismic activity back in Southern California. There may be a few very small quakes in Tennessee every other day or every few days, but they are mostly still too small and not close enough to thoroughly get me.

Breaking through the surface

 I have 4 days left until menstruation and I'm being extremely careful about what I put in my body. There has not been enough significant activity anywhere in the world this month and there was some more activity occurring in Southern California  yesterday. My insides are sore and I've been concerned. I have been taking NSAIDs everyday this week. I'm doing everything I can to avoid being in significant pain when my time comes. I was even worried about having chocolate cysts. I was already feeling some pelvic discomfort(felt like ovarian pain) and tender breasts on Sunday. I have been quite scared. I have also been concerned about my circulation. I saw some small bruises on my legs and did not recall injuring myself. I can often see dark veins in my hands, wrists, and feet. I have been feeling pressure and discomfort in my left side all day and yet my energy has been very low. It is not very easy to explain, but perhaps it all may be due to the fact that I'm far away from any sources of energy that break through the earth's surface. The closest fault systems are ancient and buried deep underneath the surface. I still do not know whether I'm really in trouble or not. All I know is that I feel an immense difference here compared to back in California. I remember having a really hard time whenever there were long periods of little or no seismic activity. I was extremely hormonal and I would go mad. I did not handle this move well at all as I was afraid it was not a good time to leave because it might finally start becoming more active there. I just hope it holds up longer at least until I get back there even for a visit. There is still not enough going on anywhere in the world yet and I feel very tired. I hope it starts up this weekend, but I also hope people out there stay safe. I of course don't want to be selfish where my comfort level is more important than possible lives being in danger out there. It is just something that happens to me. Last time, there may have been a strong earthquake somewhere, but I guess it wasn't quite enough in the days leading up to and during as there was not that much else going on. I also had alcohol 5 nights in a row and did not prepare well enough, so it eventually caught up with me later that evening after I first started. If being away from a tectonic plate boundary or any active source that comes all the way through the surface really is endangering my health, I'm guessing my solution would be to travel or at least move around as much as possible if moving somewhere active is not an available option at the time. Staying in the same place for a long period of time would be my worst enemy.

June 23, 2021

 Last night at approximately 8:08 p.m.(CDT), I suddenly started feeling some deep throbbing pains in my left side. Just over an hour later, a mag. 5.8 occurred in Peru. There was some more significant activity potentially increasing, but that was it. So far, June has been a relatively uneventful month in terms of earthquakes around the world. There may be a lot going on either by the end of this month or early July at this point. There is a chance it could start up today or tomorrow. Meanwhile, I'm preparing for my time of the month. I am trying not to mention that often, but I have a condition where I have to take better care of my body to avoid a painful flare-up. Those can be very disruptive. I'm due on Monday and I already started experiencing premenstrual symptoms a week ahead. I tend to feel off which is not a good thing. I was frustrated earlier yesterday as I could not make out what may be going on in terms of earthquakes anywhere. However, I felt something again that evening. It just has been an overall uneventful month. I have been tweaking with the colors and design of my avatars on Twitter constantly as I was so bored. While I'm preparing for my period, I'm avoiding dairy as much as possible, restricting red meat(drinking beef broth and eating eggs and chicken instead), and limiting my coffee and alcohol consumption. I chose different nights to have a drink and will not be having any alcohol on Saturday or Sunday night since I'm due on Monday. I got myself some cinnamon schnapps and sip it sparingly before going to bed. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday were the nights I have chosen for that guilty pleasure. I'm also taking ibuprofen daily in the days leading up to it before my body starts producing the bad prostaglandins. I know many people may not be interested in this and it may be off-putting to some, but it is important that I get that issue under control where it will not be interfering with my connection. I especially want to be more disciplined in preparing for that time in case there has not been enough earthquake activity going on and old stagnant energy is a primary cause of pain.

June 21, 2021

 I felt some pain and tenderness in my side on and off since yesterday as some more significant earthquake activity finally started to occur in the world. I know that this week, I'm going to have to really be disciplined and watch every little thing I put in my body as I'm due to menstruate next Monday. I cannot afford another flare-up like that. It doesn't really matter how many moderate to significant earthquakes are happening in the world, if I don't prepare well enough, I'm going to be in a lot of pain at some point. I was in hardly any pain that day up until around 6-7 p.m. I was suddenly feeling extremely tired in the 2 hours leading to the flare-up of pain. Fatigue is a precursor to a painful endo flare-up. These things can be extremely disruptive. I want to take my sensitivity to earthquakes further by doing things that will aide my wellbeing.