May 25, 2023

 Last night, I did not sleep well at all once again. I first woke up to shooting pains up my perineum into my pelvis. I tried laying on my side with a throw pillow between my legs, but it was too thick of a pillow. I could not get comfortable and was wary of too much tossing and turning causing an ovarian torsion. I was desperate and so I looked up natural methods to reduce it. I found out about this remedy in which you can combine orange or grapefruit with a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar with minced garlic. First, I ate a little spoonful of minced garlic and downed it with some water. I felt like I was going to implode. Then I drank the grapefruit and apple cider vinegar elixir. I don't expect it to work right off the bat. My abdomen is still distended and I don't expect a large cyst to go away overnight. I plan to take another dose later today to help. I also have to meditate more. There is an emotional component to this and the healing. The first significant cyst I had was in June of last year. I didn't think too much about it throughout the rest of the Summer until September. I had a dream I was in some medical setting in Japan that started out in a forest. I discovered myself in white and had my abdomen exposed laying on something soft and white. I saw a large red spot on the side of my pelvis and felt hands pushing into my skin. I felt somewhat traumatized after that, but it forced me to pay more attention to that part of my body. I turned out to actually have a cyst forming. I have been extremely shy and uncomfortable to pay too much attention to that, but that helped me be more acutely aware of this health problem I have been struggling with.