May 31, 2023

 I have been hesitating to post about my ovarian cyst everyday unless something changes. It does not feel like it has gotten better since I done that apple cider vinegar - orange mixture and garlic twice a day. I'm guessing it was at the point of no return where the cyst gets to a certain size and I'm having to wait for it to eventually pop which I'm not looking forward to at all. I guess that remedy will help keep new cysts at bay or at least keep them from becoming enlarged. I have a stubborn one this time. I felt some sharp throbbing pains there a few minutes ago. My energy has been low all day. I noticed something last night. I softly tapped my abdomen on the side that had the cyst and felt the fluid in there. I tapped the other side and the vibrations were different. I have discovered around 2 years ago that I can pick up vibrations my tapping or slapping my hand onto the ground. I didn't think about doing the same thing with my body. I also used it to test the ripeness and firmness of a watermelon before. I have to be careful not to pat my tummy too hard or too frequently as it could end up causing the cyst to rupture. It makes me wonder what a strong set of vibrational energy would do.

May 27, 2023

 I'm not really seeing a difference in my ovarian cyst getting smaller. I'm not in a lot of pain all day. It actually comes and goes which are part of the symptoms. It may be either throbbing or causing cramps. I noticed it can cause moodiness as well. I have been irritable and emotionally sensitive all day. My period is due in 9 days so it may get rough this week ahead. The cyst could also end up splitting before then if it doesn't shrink any. I have not had one grow this large and stayed there that long. I also am being careful not to seem histrionic. It is not like I look heavily pregnant. I just have a large lump in my belly. I just remember how painful that one in December was when it split. I was struggling with a bloated stomach and was uncomfortable and emotional for a week leading up to it. This one feels bigger than the cyst I had from around Thanksgiving(November 25th) to December 10th(when it broke) - That was at least the time duration when it became enlarged. I have been careful getting around with it. I would fear ovarian torsion or bleeding. Right now, my left side is hurting and has been all day. I'm not sure if that is referred pain from the cyst or potential significant seismic activity somewhere. It has been active enough out there already, but it still looks like there might be more going on any time now.

May 26, 2023

 I had a better night's sleep last night. Early this morning, I was starting to feel a throbbing in my ovarian cyst again and my side was also hurting a little. I woke up to find out that a magnitude 6.2 struck near the Chiba Prefecture, Japan. It has still been active out there. I was feeling better earlier this morning but then started to feel the bloating and pain worsen again. The dull aches and throbbing in my lower abdomen would come and go. I can really see the lump on the right side. It is very sore and tender. I'm feeling depressed and almost to the point of tears. It is a gross feeling to have a sac of fluid(possibly containing blood or other tissue) growing inside of you where you are swollen and in pain. I don't even want to talk about it with my loved ones and I don't want anyone touching me. I have been drinking the orange/apple cider vinegar with garlic elixir. I didn't expect it to cure it overnight, but it doesn't feel like it is getting better at this point. At least when I'm sitting down, my stomach is big. One thing that makes me feel a little better is that when I'm standing up, it doesn't look so bad. I don't have a gigantic cyst where I literally look totally pregnant as in rare cases. It also is assuring to feel the lump and while it is relatively smooth and firm, it can still be squishy unlike a solid mass with cancer. I don't try to squeeze it because one, it hurts, and two, I don't want to cause it to burst. I'm scared of that pain. It feels bigger than that nasty one I had back in December and I'm trying to get it under control. I have not had too much energy today. I did walk up and down the street since I can't ride my bicycle until this thing is gone.

May 25, 2023

 Last night, I did not sleep well at all once again. I first woke up to shooting pains up my perineum into my pelvis. I tried laying on my side with a throw pillow between my legs, but it was too thick of a pillow. I could not get comfortable and was wary of too much tossing and turning causing an ovarian torsion. I was desperate and so I looked up natural methods to reduce it. I found out about this remedy in which you can combine orange or grapefruit with a tablespoon of apple cider vinegar with minced garlic. First, I ate a little spoonful of minced garlic and downed it with some water. I felt like I was going to implode. Then I drank the grapefruit and apple cider vinegar elixir. I don't expect it to work right off the bat. My abdomen is still distended and I don't expect a large cyst to go away overnight. I plan to take another dose later today to help. I also have to meditate more. There is an emotional component to this and the healing. The first significant cyst I had was in June of last year. I didn't think too much about it throughout the rest of the Summer until September. I had a dream I was in some medical setting in Japan that started out in a forest. I discovered myself in white and had my abdomen exposed laying on something soft and white. I saw a large red spot on the side of my pelvis and felt hands pushing into my skin. I felt somewhat traumatized after that, but it forced me to pay more attention to that part of my body. I turned out to actually have a cyst forming. I have been extremely shy and uncomfortable to pay too much attention to that, but that helped me be more acutely aware of this health problem I have been struggling with.

May 24, 2023

 It feels like my cyst is at least the size of a baseball now. It suddenly got bigger today. This is the biggest one I ever had. It is the 6th one I've had over the past year - or I guess I can say fifth and a half. It is suspected to be the same one that reformed from the last rupture(or perhaps partial rupture) on Easter weekend last month. At around 11 a.m. or close to that time, I started feeling some severe pain in my lower abdomen. I first was thinking it was starting to split, but the pain didn't intensify and didn't hear the gurgling sounds of the fluids gushing out. I was feeling chills and was dizzy and felt sick to my stomach. I felt my cyst growing.

Taken on April 30th

I have been fragile lately. It is like I've been carrying a time bomb inside me, avoiding vigorous or strenuous activities. I have not been riding my bike or trying to lift anything that might be too heavy. When I'm alone, I take a look at my belly and can see the bulging more on the right side. I even noticed some veins on the right side of my lower abdomen because it is so swollen. My back hurts at times and I have not been sleeping well at night. I documented all the cysts I had in the past year that caused me a lot of pain. I was noticing a pattern where these would follow very busy seismic periods(after multiple magnitude 7+ worldwide over the past month). I'm not thinking they formed as a result, but grew to become problematic. It is sort of like the effect of an infection or sore that would fester from not being exposed to air and astringent. I have been cut off from a direct source of tectonic energy. There is a very low chance of me feeling a jarring set of seismic waves where I am now. It would not necessary have to be anything large, but just enough to get my blood and all flowing like it did back in California. This has that effect on my hormones. Cysts seem like they form and grow as a result of something being blocked or cut off yet low key energy seeps in which would only aggravate it. It is like a reversal of what happened in California.

May 22nd

California was a tectonic boundary, but it stayed locked up with no noticeable activity for long periods. I felt like it triggered endometriosis where it flared up with a fury after it had been quiet for a while. The cysts seem to resemble the consequence of being more sensitive to significant earthquakes all over the world from here(Tennessee is in the middle of a tectonic plate) and there are lots happening, but not getting to feel anything up close anymore. It has to be of a certain frequency to do it for me. I tried finding non-seismic sources, such as massage tools, but those can barely help. As I stated, I don't believe they form right as a lot of global activity is happening, but ones that have already formed can grow over time after there has been a lot of high activity worldwide. They can form when I fail to ovulate. It happened around New Year's after it had been rather quiet out there throughout December. I would feel it start to grow after several magnitude 7+ over the next several weeks and it popped in mid February just when I was about to begin menstruating. It resulted in a rather painful period. I felt like I've been getting these back-to-back since the start of this year. I noticed there were hardly any breaks in surges in world activity.

May 24th

There were times where it seemed to get better where I successfully felt like I shrunk a growing cyst, but that was when there was not that much going on and it eventually caught back up with me. It is hitting me harder than ever now. After thinking it was gone in mid April, I started feeling it again not long after that short period of relief. Towards the end of last month, I was already feeling like I was in trouble. Last weekend, it got worse. Now, it is the biggest I ever dealt with so far.

May 21, 2023

 I feel like this is the biggest cyst I ever had so far. I'm even noticing it as I'm standing up. It has been causing me a lot of discomfort and I'm scared. My lower back has been hurting all day. At this point, I cannot do anything too strenuous. I feel very fragile and I have to be careful and hope it starts to shrink and go away. There was more significant activity going on in the world today. After that, it felt like my ovarian cyst just got bigger. I have not been catching a break with these.

May 19, 2023

 There was a very large earthquake in the world. It occurred overnight while I was asleep. It feels like my ovarian cyst may have grown a little. My abdomen looks a little more swollen and my back hurts. I looked at my stomach and saw it was protruding a little more on the right side. I also feel tender and sore there and I've been struggling. I can't do anything too strenuous or stressful at this point. I'm scared it could go at any time and I'm afraid of that pain and I'm coming up on the middle of my cycle. I'm thinking ovulation could make it bleed if it takes place on the right side again. I believe this cyst has been inside me for a while. Last month in April, around Easter, I had one burst(it wasn't too painful). About a few weeks later, I felt something bother me and suspected it reformed. It grew after I ovulated last month. It doesn't look so bad when I'm standing. I'm just feeling sore with aches and pains and feel slight twitches in the side of my belly. I felt side pains earlier as well. I'm going to go and take a hot bath.

May 17, 2023

 I have been feeling some sharp pain in my left side. A magnitude 6.2 struck Guatemala about an hour ago. It has been very quiet this week otherwise. It might end up getting more active again. I'm not sure though. Something really big could be happening later on. I am feeling hot now. I also am aware that I have a cyst inside me and it has been bothering me again today. I'm still not sure if it is going to be an outbreak in activity worldwide. There may just be one big earthquake and there is not much going on elsewhere.

Bad reaction - A warning

 Over the past couple of days, I have been recovering from a terrible experience I had on Saturday evening. I will preface this with the fact that I do not take any drugs and I don't drink too much either(just 3 nights out of the week and not heavily; I'm a bit of a lightweight). We had company on Saturday evening where everyone sat out with my Grandfather and socialized. Someone brought over this hemp drink. They offered me some and told me that it was not supposed to make me stoned and it was non-alcoholic. It was said to just relax me and make me feel good, so I accepted the offer. I was never a fan of getting high. I only tried it a few times in my life - puffed a joint in California. I had an edible before too and I never wanted to do that again. It took me down an endless rabbit hole and it was frightening. It was just one edible. This drink was of delta-8 THC and I was barely given a shot into my glass of ginger beer(also non-alcoholic) and ice.

I was just going to try it once and then fix my dinner, take my bath, and get ready for bed that evening. It did not hit me until about 30-40 minutes later. First, I felt goofy and then started tripping and was like "Oh no." Time started getting slower and it got worse from that point on. I prepared my bath water and was already beginning to feel confused about what room I was in. I was afraid I would walk out of the bathroom naked at one point. I could not enjoy my bath, fearing that I could pass out in the bathtub. I dried myself off and got into my pajamas and called my aunt. I was telling her that I was scared and debating calling 9-1-1. I was starting to fear for my life. She told me that she was going to come over and check on me. After that, it got even worse. The world around me was gyrating and I started feeling tingling and numbness in my extremities and started looking flushed. At that point, I was convinced that I was dying. I thought I was having a stroke or heart attack. That was the most afraid I have ever been in my life. It was the worst feeling ever. I was not in unbearable physical pain of any sort, but I felt like I was losing consciousness. I kept wondering how I was even walking and talking. I literally thought I was having a stroke. I thought I was going to die and there was nothing I or anyone could do. I called 9-1-1 and paramedics arrived and took me to the emergency room. In the ambulance, I kept saying I can't go out like this. I can't just be ripped away from my family. I have so much ambition and so much I need to see and do. My vitals were good, but my heart rate was up. I felt like I was barely cognizant. I watched my feet twitch and felt some spasms in my arm and was afraid they would jerk loose at any time and start flailing uncontrollably. It was completely out of character for me to call 9-1-1 and be rushed to the hospital in my pajamas. After I arrived, the nurse hooked me to a heart monitor and gave me a pill with a cup of water. My mouth was so dry, I was scared it was closing up on the inside. I eventually started to feel a little normal again and was taken home at around 8 that night. Many people do not realize how dangerous this stuff can be. It takes very little for it to hit me hard. I may be incredibly sensitive and have an extremely low tolerance for those things, but I really don't think THC is safe for anyone. I was definitely in no condition to process anything going on in the Earth then. I'm even having to be careful sometimes when I have alcohol.

May 1, 2023

 I have been feeling some sharp pains in my left side over the past 2 hours. I am starting to look at the New Madrid Seismic Zone which is 200 miles(321 km) from here. There has been some activity flaring up there over the last several days. A magnitude 2.8 just happened near Ridgely, TN at 1:45. I know that is far away, but I would not ignore the possibility of something going on there and being more sensitive over farther distances being far away from a tectonic plate boundary. There could also be more going on elsewhere in the world. I'm also dealing with a cyst on my right ovary once again. I have been eating salads since Saturday and that has helped with my digestion. Eating more live foods than highly processed foods would help if you find yourself having issues there. Otherwise, I'm sore and tender all over. It feels like something could also still be looming somewhere out there.