April 30, 2021: A Summary

 I know that I have been confused and frustrated since arriving in this new place. I was trying to understand why this has happened. Before all this, I was feeling like I was finally getting closer to the day of finding out what would happen when a big earthquake were to strike up close. I was making these new discoveries and it was exciting. Then all of a sudden, it was ripped away from me and I found myself on my hands and knees gathering the broken pieces, trying to fix them back in another form that still has not made sense. I have been pondering that it may have not been so good if I had stayed in California. I may not be missing out on much. Chances are, I could be in the same position 2 years later and still have not experienced anything I have not already experienced before. In the long run, just occasional mag. 4s and perhaps a 5 from miles and miles away once out of the year would not be enough. I would be burning up with that energy from the tectonic plate boundary, making my hormones drive me insane. I remember how I was. Working a job 5 days a week sort of helped with my anger issues. I had less frequent outbursts because I was not stuck up on that mountain for 2-3 weeks straight and kept myself busy. L.A. and all those fun places we would go to for outings in the early days of living there are not the same anymore. I have grieved and missed that profoundly, but I'm told I'm not missing out on anything over there. I noticed that over here, I'm a little calmer, although I have been struggling since I did not want to move and being around family can be stressful for me. Otherwise, I have so far not been experiencing as much pain during menstruation and am less aggressive. Lately, I would feel frustrated and wonder what the point of me being out here was if there would hardly ever be any earthquakes and I cannot fit in with anyone here. I'm at least hoping that there is nothing going on back in Southern California any time soon other than the mag. 3s and 4s every now and then. I track activity from around the world more distinctly here it seems. I'm still in touch with what is going on back in my former residence. Sometimes I'm concerned that this move may have been dangerous. I have been suspecting I could have some vascular issues going on after suddenly being uprooted from a place I have lived in for 8 years and had a strong connection there. I have felt excruciating leg pain and problems with my feet. The foot issue was more of a problem during the first few weeks here. I am feeling what feels like a bruise in my upper arm, but don't see any discoloration and don't recall injuring myself there. I have also felt light-headed and dizzy with some headaches. I see this as a better opportunity for travel where travelling would help ease the stress. 

April 28, 2021

 I'm feeling some acute burning pains in my left side right now. I have seldom felt significant pain there since moving to Middle Tennessee, but it is bothering me right now. It is coming in waves. Last night, I was experiencing some night sweats. As far as earthquakes are concerned, there has been a surge in activity in Southern California since yesterday. A mag. 3.5 occurred in San Diego County early this morning. Some new small quakes have popped up near the NMSZ and the ETSZ over the past day. There has been a lot of significant earthquake activity going on in parts of the world. 

7:30 P.M.(CDT)

I'm guessing I have been feeling all that from the ongoing activity in Southern California - Numerous very small quakes occurring frequently since yesterday. I'm not sure whether this could also have to do with something potentially taking place nearby or something really big out there in the world somewhere.

April 27, 2021

 This is all content that I am documenting. If I share things that may make some people uncomfortable or it seeming inappropriate or unnecessary, it is all content that I'm documenting. I don't do it to overshare or make people uncomfortable. I find it necessary. I believe that when I finally go in for a doctor's visit, it will be very helpful. It has been mostly a mystery as to what all is taking place in my body. I know I have not been imagining all this. I would like to be able to discern whether it is my deep sensitivity to impending earthquakes from all over or something else going on. I may have not been formally diagnosed with endometriosis, but I display all the symptoms of it. I have been afraid of it turning out to be something else like fibromyalgia or pelvic inflammatory disease even though these symptoms are more congruent with endometriosis and they line up with my menstrual cycle. I have been afraid that people will stop listening to me or think I'm a big liar. I have been needing medical insurance and have not been to a doctor in about 12 years. I have never been to a gynecologist in my life. A lot of this is due to the fact that I have been essentially too shy to go to a doctor. I have been experiencing some odd things going on with my body recently, especially since moving all the way out here in March. I have been feeling somewhat weak, stiff, and sore all over. I feel I used to have more structure back in California along a plate boundary. It ensured that there was definitely a connection between my pain and seismic activity. Here, I feel lost and confused. The New Madrid Seismic Zone to the west and Eastern TN Seismic Zone to my east don't set off a lot of earthquakes. There have not been any of magnitude 3 and above reported and intraplate seismic zones are more challenging to understand. I read that it is hard to tell if there is stress building up in the NMSZ, but it is there according to the scientists. What I'm saying is that I feel frustrated and scattered being unable to tell whether there is something going on close by or impending large events elsewhere in the world. I also get confused with the trapped energy from back in CA where I still can feel things going on from here.

10:03 P.M.(CDT)

I noticed that my legs, especially my calves feel like they are swollen and so are my feet. I have been extremely sensitive there and very much elsewhere in my body. I was outside walking around in the neighborhood and felt what felt like something running up my leg inside my body. I'm becoming somewhat scared and do not know what may be going on. I felt a few sharp or dull pains in my left side, but nothing very strong like what I felt back there. I have even felt slightly dizzy and confused. I'm going to further explore this more thoroughly.

April 26, 2021

 It has been nearly a week since my last post in this blog. There was not much going on last week, but I have started feeling things again yesterday morning. I woke up to severe pain in my right calf yesterday morning and I'm still feeling sensitive and on edge about it. I have not experienced that in a while. I have felt some mild pain in my side today and yesterday. There has been a lot of significant earthquake activity going on in parts of the world. I'm wondering if the leg pain has been caused by being separated from where I lived before. It is like the energy from back over there is trapped in my body and energy from elsewhere combined with it causes more stress or something. I'm still not sure what this all means. My side feels tender and I generally feel tender everywhere else.

6:54 P.M.(CDT)

I have been feeling very tender all over my body. My legs also feel stiff and sensitive as I walk downstairs. I'm not sure what it is at this point. I have started to feel some pain in my left side this evening.

April 20, 2021

 I believe I may be in what I would call a trap for seismic energy. It is like I'm taking in various forms of energy in the ground from everywhere. I have been unsure as this place is so much different than where I was living before for 8 years. I believe that I'm in a field where energy travels from all over where it is not all broken up by the faulting as on a plate boundary. It is distributed differently here - much differently. I also am pitted between two seismic zones. I don't feel the sharp side pains as frequently as I used to in California, but there are days where I am feeling so much. Yesterday, I felt some acute pain in my side on and off all day along with Mittelschmerz. There was a lot of activity going on in the world and even in parts of the country yesterday. There were a few more micro quakes that occurred on this side of the country and there was a lot of activity heating up in Oklahoma. I may have gotten a part of that in my system since I traveled through that area along the way. I felt a strong pain on the left side of my lower abdomen and it suddenly ran up into my left side and up my ribs. This morning, I noticed I have been very tender, especially in my side. I felt a lot of dizziness this morning as well. I'm going to be further investigating all of this. This move was like something I have build and had a fine picture I knew and understood and then it got shattered into many pieces and I have been trying to piece them back together in a new way.

April 17, 2021

 I felt a sudden pain in my side earlier. It was not severe, but it got my attention. It might have been from a small flare-up of activity in Southern California. There were a few very small quakes in Western and Eastern Tennessee and North Carolina last night. It is a mystery what could be going on in this part of the country. There may be hidden earthquakes that occur in this region. That means there may be some quakes that go undetected because this is not a very busy area when it comes to monitoring earthquakes. Maybe that is what I'm here for! I have felt sudden vibrations out here. I would look around for other sources and could not find any. I have been experiencing a mild headache all day. My side is very tender right now. I will find out what happens next.

7:31 P.M.(CDT)

I just started feeling some mild pain in my left side again. It is more of a dull ache on my ribs. I felt some deep vibrations earlier this afternoon.

April 16, 2021

 I still have not figured it out yet with what I make of it here. I was feeling some side pains a few days ago and even some on Wednesday evening. I felt that much of it was linked to a flare-up of seismic activity in Southern California. Part of me is still back over there it feels like. There was a mag. 2.1 near Maryville, TN at a quarter to 10 on Wednesday night, but I don't know if that was enough. It is very tricky when it comes to seismic activity in places away from plate boundaries. These quakes are smaller than mag. 2.5 on both sides of the state and don't occur on a daily basis - More like every 2-3 days. They are also somewhat distant. Maryville is 133 miles from here and the NMSZ is roughly 180 miles away. I have felt some pain in my side before a surge in significant earthquake activity around the world, but it has still been confusing. It is still taking me time to get my bearings. I have only been here for a month compared to the eight years I lived in Southern California.

11:27 A.M.(CDT)

I have felt some mild pain in my side over the last hour. I did notice a very small quake occurred in the NMSZ which was last night. It is very hard to figure out what exactly is going on. There was more activity heating up in parts of the world earlier yesterday, but then it went quiet again. It could just now be picking back up out there. My energy is starting to increase. There was also a small flare-up of seismic activity in Southern California over the last hour or two.