A 12-Year Gestation

 The energy of the earth's geological forces has been long deeply woven into my system. It is as though it became a part of me. The seed was planted when I visited California for the first time in 2009, being the first time I made physical contact with a tectonic plate boundary. I was feeling a lot of pain in my side when I left, as soon as the plane left the ground. I felt some pain in my side before an earthquake struck North of the area I was in while there. It was a magnitude 4.6 near Trona and I was in the Hesperia and Victorville area. It was November 16, 2009. After that trip, I noticed that I was picking up on distant large earthquakes around the world from Florida. In the last 2 years of living in California, it evolved from the July 2019 Ridgecrest sequence. That was the largest earthquake I have been close enough to to be well felt. Throughout those years, I was mainly focused on the energy around Southern California South of the Garlock Fault, North of the Mexico border. After the 2019 earthquakes, it was developing to where I became more sensitive to the activity more than 100 miles North from my location. It was getting kind of far up there just before I moved away. Leaving California was the hardest thing I ever faced in my life. It felt as though a part of me inside was torn. I'm a little worried about how this may be impacting my circulatory system - like something has been cut off. I sometimes feel numbness and tingling on one side of my body. I get dizzy and feel weak and sometimes wake up to stabbing pains deep in one of my calves. I even have discovered small bruises on my legs. All I know is that I might become very ill if I stay in one place for too long. I don't feel very good circulation out here in Tennessee, far away from any plate margin. In the first month or two after arriving here, I was very lost. I then started realizing how I'm acutely sensitive to larger earthquakes around the world. It was expanding in California. Here, I'm keeping track of activity everywhere. I did that before, but here it seems magnified 2-fold. It was like that in Florida now that I remember. I have been surprised by side pains before a big earthquake somewhere else in the world. I have also realized the significant difference between earthquake vibrations and artificial sources. Seismic waves don't make sound and for me, it is deeply visceral. A lot of people describe their experience of an earthquake as watching everything around them move. For me, it leaves me breathless. It feels like something shocked me. It even feels like I move along with the energy. It courses up my body like an intense hot spasm. There are people who experience totally physical effects from an earthquake. Many people become nauseous and experience motion sickness from a decent-sized quake.