September 22, 2021

 There has been more significant activity occurring in the world over the past few days so far. It still feels active right now, but at the same time, it could stop for now. When it comes to these activity surges around the world, it feels like I have these imaginary strings or ribbons attached to me. It feels as though one or multiple ribbons grow tight and start tugging on me whenever something big might be taking place somewhere. Most of the time when I feel that tension, there is subsequently a lot of activity going on in the world. It can be within hours or a few days. I want to do more research and study cells and see what I can find. I have discovered a pattern involving my endocrine system and my circulatory system in accordance with the activity. I want to break it down to cells to try to find a connection there. I realized that I already achieved picking up on earthquakes before they happen. Although I have been really yearning to find out what a large one up close would feel like, I already have it down. Wherever I am in the world, that connection is always there and just as strong. It doesn't fade away as I travel or relocate to a less seismically active place. In tectonic boundaries, my sensitivity is more concentrated on the region although I have successfully detected large quakes elsewhere in the world beforehand. When I'm in the middle of a plate, my sensitivity is generally more focused everywhere else in the world. I realize that this has not been a failure. At this point, it is a matter of it being widely recognized. I have a good handful of followers on Twitter and am very grateful for that. I'm being careful not to come across like I'm bragging or some big shot to claims to predict earthquakes. This is something I have been practicing for a decade. I have not been so forthcoming and have in fact been shy and reclusive. At some point, I have to become more confident but at the same time not coming across like I have some talent nobody else has. This is not an attempt to become famous. It is nice to feel recognized sometimes. I put a lot of heart into this for years and I sometimes feel isolated like I'm experiencing this all alone. I know I'm not crazy. This is not something I made up in my head that I'm just imagining. I feel real physical pain. I always think of how there is a time and place for everything. I try to make peace with how I'm not in California anymore for a good reason and that I'm not missing anything - at least not anything I have not experienced before. I have gotten on the edge of my seat wondering "Could this be it? Could the 'big one' finally be happening soon?" whenever there was a surge in activity around Southern CA. After a swarm in or by the Salton Sea or where the count of small EQs over the last day would be up to over 100, it would end up receding back to the way it was a day or two later. That went on for years. I remember being so frustrated, desiring to travel to more active places in the meantime. I even had moments where the thought of it being another 10 years before the next major EQ in the region made me wish to move somewhere else more active like Alaska. Yet, I cannot help but miss living in California and it hits me hard on some days, especially whenever there is an increase in activity. I remember how I used to get excited whenever a mag. 3 or 4 occurred in the area. It is hard seeing that going on from way over here. It can be quite depressing at times. Then again, I remind myself that I'm probably not missing out on anything new. The next major earthquake may not be happening there any time soon and it could continue where there are 3s and occasional 4s for another 5-10 years. Although I cannot say that because we don't know what will end up happening, I have to be faithful that the Universe understands what I want and knows my heart.

September 17, 2021

 I'm not going to be making posts with updates every time I feel something going on or during every active window. However, I will make these kind of posts every so often. I just will not post as frequently as before. I have been feeling warmth this afternoon and just started feeling some mild throbbing pains in my left side. It feels like there could be some more significant activity going on somewhere in the world again any time or day now. I'm also not going to exclude the possibility of some activity occurring closer to my area any time or day now. It could be within 3-6 hours or 2-3 days at this point when something happens. These sensations may also subside and it could go quiet again.

A 12-Year Gestation

 The energy of the earth's geological forces has been long deeply woven into my system. It is as though it became a part of me. The seed was planted when I visited California for the first time in 2009, being the first time I made physical contact with a tectonic plate boundary. I was feeling a lot of pain in my side when I left, as soon as the plane left the ground. I felt some pain in my side before an earthquake struck North of the area I was in while there. It was a magnitude 4.6 near Trona and I was in the Hesperia and Victorville area. It was November 16, 2009. After that trip, I noticed that I was picking up on distant large earthquakes around the world from Florida. In the last 2 years of living in California, it evolved from the July 2019 Ridgecrest sequence. That was the largest earthquake I have been close enough to to be well felt. Throughout those years, I was mainly focused on the energy around Southern California South of the Garlock Fault, North of the Mexico border. After the 2019 earthquakes, it was developing to where I became more sensitive to the activity more than 100 miles North from my location. It was getting kind of far up there just before I moved away. Leaving California was the hardest thing I ever faced in my life. It felt as though a part of me inside was torn. I'm a little worried about how this may be impacting my circulatory system - like something has been cut off. I sometimes feel numbness and tingling on one side of my body. I get dizzy and feel weak and sometimes wake up to stabbing pains deep in one of my calves. I even have discovered small bruises on my legs. All I know is that I might become very ill if I stay in one place for too long. I don't feel very good circulation out here in Tennessee, far away from any plate margin. In the first month or two after arriving here, I was very lost. I then started realizing how I'm acutely sensitive to larger earthquakes around the world. It was expanding in California. Here, I'm keeping track of activity everywhere. I did that before, but here it seems magnified 2-fold. It was like that in Florida now that I remember. I have been surprised by side pains before a big earthquake somewhere else in the world. I have also realized the significant difference between earthquake vibrations and artificial sources. Seismic waves don't make sound and for me, it is deeply visceral. A lot of people describe their experience of an earthquake as watching everything around them move. For me, it leaves me breathless. It feels like something shocked me. It even feels like I move along with the energy. It courses up my body like an intense hot spasm. There are people who experience totally physical effects from an earthquake. Many people become nauseous and experience motion sickness from a decent-sized quake.

Summary: 9/3/21

 Instead of writing down what I'm feeling everyday in this blog, I'm considering posting less frequent posts summarizing what I have experienced over the past few weeks. I also am piecing together how my monthly cycle varies depending on the global activity because I have noticed a pattern. Whenever there was a dramatic surge in earthquake activity around the world during ovulation week, it feels like my hormones(primarily estrogen) go into overdrive. I start feeling euphoric to the point to where it becomes overwhelming. This happened to me this past month and in May. It seems to set me up for a bad period(endo flare-up). However, my periods are easier whenever there is an abundant amount of activity in the world during my time. During the heavier days, before a large quake was about to happen somewhere, I have experienced uterine pressure and discomfort accompanied with side pains then instant relief after it happens. This happened to me in California when it came to activity around the region. This is not to say that I'm at the mercy of the earthquake activity every month. I know I have to really be strict about my diet from now on and not wait until the day before menstruation to watch everything I put in my body. I should incorporate other exercises such as planking and also meditating and reducing stress in my life. I have not been very disciplined in that area. The global activity has also been known to affect my mood and energy. Whenever it is low, so is my energy and I can often find myself in a negative state where I can be depressed, irritable, and an emotional train wreck. That does not always happen. Especially after there has been a lot of activity most recently, I'm fine. Whenever there is due to be more going on and it becomes stagnant, that is where it tends to affect me negatively. I have discovered that artificial seismic waves do not help reduce my pain. Last Thursday when I was in having an endometriosis attack, an explosion happened at a local quarry sending a shock wave through the house. It did not relieve my pain like a natural event would. The seismic waves from an earthquake are deeply visceral and produce no loud noise. I also feel pain and discomfort just before an earthquake. I'm not connected to any anthropogenic(man-made) sources.