Searching pt. 1

I'm trying to deeply figure this all out. I have been perplexed as to where exactly this came from. I want to be tested on. I am becoming desperate for answers. I have so much going on inside of me. If I were to be an organ, I am the heart. The heart is the body's hardest working organ. Inside, I'm constantly working. I'm constantly processing energy and pain coming from deep inside the earth near and all over the world. I'm being pumped with energy from actual distant seismic events and inert strain energy at the same time. It cycles in and out of my system.
New strain energy(on the verge of earthquakes) wells up inside of me and then is replaced with actual seismic energy where I'm wrung raw. Then it starts up all over again in various duration of time intervals between events. At the same time, I'm processing various distances and learning to discern potential local earthquake activity and larger and more distant events. I'm not a computer. I'm not a bot. I am a mortal, vulnerable body of flesh, bone, and blood. Something can sneak up and kill me any day. I'm overall healthy and have a fit physique.
All this may sound like my body is falling apart inside, but I know with all my heart(no pun intended) and soul that I'm not mistaking my sensitivity to earthquakes for something else. I first became interested in earthquakes in early 2008(12 years ago). I visited California for the first time in November 2009. It was then that I discovered feeling side pain and other unusual symptoms before earthquakes. I have not been to a tectonic plate boundary before in my life until that trip. I was very much living in the South my whole life before finally moving here 7 years ago.
I have been trying to dig deeper and find out how long this has actually existed, before I was ever interested in earthquakes, going all the way back to any childhood memories I have not given thought to. I started developing that sensitivity in my side after hitting puberty. I remember being 14 or 15 and suddenly feeling a random stabbing pain in my side. I was living in Florida then. I would get those pains from a surplus of energy from multiple significant events around the world. It becomes magnified in places away from plate boundaries, the further I am apart from one.
The loose soil there was likely another factor as it increases the amplitude of vibrations. When at plate boundaries, it is more concentrated within an area of 100 or so miles. However, Southern California is sliced and diced with faults, so it is broken up where I have to be almost next to the source before an event. I have not been to the doctor in years. I have been very shy and hesitant about revealing these odd symptoms. However, I'm tired of being in the dark. My life is changing this year without a doubt.