August 4, 2023

 I'm feeling some pain in my left side again and there have been signs of it growing active again out there any time now. There was a magnitude 5.9 off the coast of Central America the other day. I have felt it heating up on and off. I also have been feeling those familiar pains during little spurts in seismic activity in Southern California. So, I am finding more confirmation that while I may not be living there anymore, I can still feel those little increases in activity around the region.

August 1, 2023

 I am feeling some sharp pains in my left side so far. There has also been more moderate earthquake activity increasing worldwide. I'm also premenstrual and my ovarian cyst has again been bothersome. I am very tender and sore all over. I mention those things because I notice a connection between the highs and dips in global seismic activity and my endocrine system(hormones). I have believed the cysts are a result of stifled energy. When I was on a plate boundary where everything was flowing, but strained, it manifested as full-blown endometriosis. I also had severe anger issues. I was never violent, by the way. I just felt crazy and overwhelmed. Those intense emotions were very difficult to control. I have not had those issues since. However, I have felt less energy here and it also may have affected my circulation.

July 29, 2023

 I have felt some side pains over the last few days when it got active out there. I have also noticed that I still feel flare-ups back in Southern California. It is still in my system even though I don't live there now. There was also a little bit of activity not too far from where I am. A magnitude 2.2 struck southeastern TN today at 1:38 p.m. It calmed down a little earlier in terms of worldwide activity, but there may now be more going on out there somewhere again. I'm feeling some pain in my side again and feel warmer. Regarding my ovarian cyst, it still has not gone away. I have days where it is not bothering me. It feels like it fluctuates in size. My period is in a few days and right now, it feels bigger. The swelling is more pronounced on the right side of my lower abdomen. I thought it was going to burst during the ovulation phase. I felt pain in my right ovary and it hurt to sit. I am wondering if the cyst is inside my ovary rather than on the surface since it still has not broken open. In the past, I had enlarged cysts that would break after 2 or 3 weeks. I can still feel the vibrations of the fluid in my tummy as I tap on it. I have gotten scared of the fluid thickening and potentially becoming cancerous later on if it stays in there much longer. Especially as my period is approaching I am more sensitive than usual. I am very much tender all over.

July 10, 2023

 I abandoned the other blog and started using Wordpress on Friday. However, I can still document physical symptoms and health issues here. The latest ovarian cyst is still there. It is still large. I'm not sure what to do. I'm still waiting for it to pop. I feel tender all over my body. I'm able to feel the fluid as I tap on the right side of my abdomen which is swollen. I'm thinking it might be the size of a grapefruit. This is the sixth ovarian cyst I have had over the past year and it is the most stubborn I ever had. Since the start of this year, I feel like I have been getting them back to back. They seem to have formed after very seismically active months(large earthquakes worldwide - multiple magnitude 7+). However, the first one of the year seemed to have formed when it felt like I didn't ovulate and this followed a rather quiet month. I recall feeling like I missed ovulation before when there was not enough energy being released anywhere. I found out that ovarian cysts were like pimples of the reproductive organs. It is like something ingrown or blocked leading to a bubble of fluid to form. I didn't start having these until a year after I moved here from California, away from any plate boundary and far from any source of seismic energy. Back in California, it was more full-blown endometriosis where I was prone to very painful periods every month depending on what was going on. It was both connected to local and global activity. I remember suffering more when there was nothing going on anywhere for a while. I still had some painful periods the first year in TN, but it got easier as I adjusted to this environment. Later on, ovarian cysts would become the new problem. I may not be aware when they first form, but I noticed the ones that became enlarged followed busy months in terms of global seismic activity. The first one I had this year lasted for one month. It formed around New Years when I didn't feel anything when I was supposed to ovulate. It became a little enlarged after a couple of major surges in activity. It ruptured a month later. I had a short break from that in March when there was not that much going on throughout much of that month. Then it felt like another had formed during the latter part of the month and ruptured on Easter weekend(April 7-9). Another one had formed a couple weeks later and I'm still suffering with it.

June 19, 2023

 The cyst has not gone away. It feels like it got larger again. There has been a lot of significant activity in the world over the last few days. It is still active out there so far. This latest ovarian cyst has been a stubborn one. I have never had one last this long before. The last ones I had would become enlarged and eventually rupture 2 or 3 weeks later. This is the largest one I have ever had so far. It feels like about the size of a baseball or possibly a little larger. I realized that I feel vibrations I put out as I tap onto a surface. I discovered this about 2 years ago. I have used it to check if a watermelon was overripe(the bigger the wavelength, the softer the meat inside). I have used it on my cyst. I can feel the fluid inside vibrate as I lightly tap my lower tummy on that side. I don't feel it so much on the left side. It is like an overripe melon where there is no firm tight structure like a sac of fluid on that side. As I tap on my cyst, I can even feel my whole body vibrate a little. This is helpful as I can locate where it is and figure out how large it is. It is very tender and hurts if I try to squeeze it or poke at it too much or vigorously. It even feels like it may be larger than my uterus. I was wondering why this one is so stubborn. I was assuming that it might be actually inside of my ovary rather than on it where the membrane would be thinner and more prone to break open. However, it doesn't feel that firm. It feels like a water balloon inside me. I have to be careful over these next few days, especially around ovulation. I'm afraid that would trigger it to pop. It is also relieving to feel fluid instead of mass. Otherwise, I have felt some pain from it today. I also have been feeling full quicker after eating and have not had much of an appetite due to the thing taking up space in my insides. I have been so tired.

June 7, 2023

 I believe that I might have PMDD(Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder or severe PMS). Some months are not as bad as others. Symptoms typically occur during the week leading up to period or sometimes, I start to feel a decline in mood at the start of my luteal phase - more than a week before my period. I'm thinking this ovarian cyst I have been struggling with may have exacerbated it. I have been depressed and confused lately. I have been lethargic and sore and I just feel like I cannot keep up. I feel flashes of extreme irritability, but what I have been feeling the most was depression, brain fog, and fatigue. I have been feeling like a mess lately and I can't make up my mind on anything. I've been flighty and picky, and it is very distressing. It seems like I have a host of serious problems related to my cycle. It sucks because it is making me feel and look incompetent, especially as a woman. Otherwise, it is very overwhelming and frustrating and difficult to live with.

June 6, 2023

 I'm waiting to start my period any time now and I have been rather depressed. I don't think my ovarian cyst is shrinking at all. It is a stubborn one this time. Usually, they burst by that size except this feels like the biggest one I ever had so far. There has not been much going on in the world in terms of significant seismic activity lately. I knew it was due for a break. I have hardly had any energy and I am struggling to focus. I have been able to do a lot of work around the house, but mentally, I feel drained. I cannot wait until this week is over. At this point, I just feel like laying down and taking a nap which is something I would never do during the day.