June 19, 2023

 The cyst has not gone away. It feels like it got larger again. There has been a lot of significant activity in the world over the last few days. It is still active out there so far. This latest ovarian cyst has been a stubborn one. I have never had one last this long before. The last ones I had would become enlarged and eventually rupture 2 or 3 weeks later. This is the largest one I have ever had so far. It feels like about the size of a baseball or possibly a little larger. I realized that I feel vibrations I put out as I tap onto a surface. I discovered this about 2 years ago. I have used it to check if a watermelon was overripe(the bigger the wavelength, the softer the meat inside). I have used it on my cyst. I can feel the fluid inside vibrate as I lightly tap my lower tummy on that side. I don't feel it so much on the left side. It is like an overripe melon where there is no firm tight structure like a sac of fluid on that side. As I tap on my cyst, I can even feel my whole body vibrate a little. This is helpful as I can locate where it is and figure out how large it is. It is very tender and hurts if I try to squeeze it or poke at it too much or vigorously. It even feels like it may be larger than my uterus. I was wondering why this one is so stubborn. I was assuming that it might be actually inside of my ovary rather than on it where the membrane would be thinner and more prone to break open. However, it doesn't feel that firm. It feels like a water balloon inside me. I have to be careful over these next few days, especially around ovulation. I'm afraid that would trigger it to pop. It is also relieving to feel fluid instead of mass. Otherwise, I have felt some pain from it today. I also have been feeling full quicker after eating and have not had much of an appetite due to the thing taking up space in my insides. I have been so tired.